Difficult week, still not in control

Well, I have not blogged, due to the fact that it is my goal to keep this site on a positive and upbeat note, but I thought about it over the weekend and I really want it to be a support group a place where we can encourage and lift each other up, because as my last week proved to me, I am still not in control of food when it comes to my emotions. I lost one of my wonderful babies this past week, she had a tumor and it shut her down just all of a sudden, we put her out of her pain on Wednesday. I proceeded to stress eat at that point, I ate 6 corn dogs and half a bag of chips Wednesday night. I then stress ate Thurs, Friday, Sat and Sunday. Yesterday morning I awoke and realized just how bad I felt physically and eating into my old habits will not bring SusieQ back, it will make me fatter and miserable. Many people have said that I had a good reason for screwing up, but in my mind destroying all that I have worked for is not going to help anything. I am coping with the loss and my other babies are helping me do that. I plan to put last weeks eating on my food diary on the website because it is the truth and not the right thing to do. I love SusieQ and always will, but I need to continue to get healthy so that I can take my other babies for a walk and play and enjoy their life.