wow that was a close one

Ok, been so busy lately at work that I have not had the time to take on this. I went and weighed Friday the 20th and I lost 5 pounds. Ok, now, I really expected a gain with all the stress I have had this past 4 weeks, but no I lost 5 pounds. I am a little disappointed, but only a little, because like I told husband we have no business being disappointed in the outcome if we did not do the work to make things happen. But I am very relieved because that is 5 pounds less. Greg took off 2 pounds despite all the turmoil. So, everythings is good and next weigh in will be better.

totally lost my mind

Ok everyone, sorry for not blogging for a while. It seems after I was so excited on my birthday and praising God in my heart for helping on my journey and acknowledging to everyone how great life is, it seemed to take a nose dive. Wow, what a rough month. I have had so much stress and turmoil and this has not been a good month for losing weight. I go and weigh on Friday and I am not expecting a whole lot of loss if any. Between, Susie Q leaving us and my mom's health, my church family went through a struggle that just got me all uptight, this cause arguments with hubby, so I felt like my marriage was on the rocks.....just on and on. But you know what, I have to know who is behind it all and not let the enemy win. So, I am kicking it into high gear this week and staying on the path and in overdrive from now on. My goal at this point is to try and get my exercise going, so everyone wish me luck. Love Mel

Happy New Year

Yep, it's the beginning of another year of my life and I am anxious to see where this road is going. Wow, I am so happy to be alive and so happy to be me.

47 tomorrow

Wow, I am going to be 47 years old tomorrow!!!!!! I was sitting and thinking this morning about my life and realized that this time last year, I was so depressed I couldn't even stand to be alive. I was hurting, couldn't breath, was just miserable, I did not even want to get out of bed for my birthday. The gang at work, did my birthday thing and I just really did not get enthused I was wishing that another year had not gone by. But this year is different, I am so excited to be turning 47, I am excited about life and where it will be heading in the future, I feel good, i feel free and most of all I feel loved. I don't mind another year starting, in fact I embrace it and all the years to come. Thank you Heavenly Father for not giving up on me and for not letting me give up on myself, thank you for the people that you surround me with, who care about me and love me. You are truly a Holy and Mighty Father.

Difficult week, still not in control

Well, I have not blogged, due to the fact that it is my goal to keep this site on a positive and upbeat note, but I thought about it over the weekend and I really want it to be a support group a place where we can encourage and lift each other up, because as my last week proved to me, I am still not in control of food when it comes to my emotions. I lost one of my wonderful babies this past week, she had a tumor and it shut her down just all of a sudden, we put her out of her pain on Wednesday. I proceeded to stress eat at that point, I ate 6 corn dogs and half a bag of chips Wednesday night. I then stress ate Thurs, Friday, Sat and Sunday. Yesterday morning I awoke and realized just how bad I felt physically and eating into my old habits will not bring SusieQ back, it will make me fatter and miserable. Many people have said that I had a good reason for screwing up, but in my mind destroying all that I have worked for is not going to help anything. I am coping with the loss and my other babies are helping me do that. I plan to put last weeks eating on my food diary on the website because it is the truth and not the right thing to do. I love SusieQ and always will, but I need to continue to get healthy so that I can take my other babies for a walk and play and enjoy their life.

FEELIN GOOD AND HAPPY FOR MY FRIEND

Well, just a quick update, on mom, she is home and doing well. She had to stay in longer than expected because she gave everyone a scare thurs. but she is better. Now one to feeling good.
It was so great being able to walk the hospital and take care of mom and dad and not even get out of breath. It was exactly what I needed to realize I need to keep going.

I am so happy for Kristi, girl you are awsome and doing great. I wish I had the umph to exercise like you are, I still am not great on that part. Keep it up girl you will have new clothes before you know it.

Energized

Well, I went to weigh in. Another 3.5 pounds, for a total of 10 pounds. I'm so excited. I went to the mall and could walk the whole time! I'm loving this! I can't wait until I'm like Mel and can go get new clothes. I know that plateaus can hit, but I'm prepared and will try hard to not be disappointed. But right now, YEAH!